muzukashii [.difficult, tough, etc.]

Argg

I failed my history exam. *knocks on wood* How crappy. The end of semester blues. I just got back from nicoles apartment. Finishing up some patterning homework. Erin, Emily, and Kyler were there too. We watched love actually <3. I need to get off my ass and do some actual work. I've been pretty lonley as of late... sigh. I think I miss Matt.

Mang

I hate being depressed. But it hits you so hard! I've been drinking a little more than usual lately. I hope I'm not becoming an alcoholic. Life is pretty complicated right now. But I'm happy breathing and living in the moments. Just like to laugh and have fun right? What's the point if your not happy? So school is going good. Next semester I only go to school 3 days a week. but its 19 credits so it's a fullll ass load. <3

I've been hanging out with my cousin mike lately.He's pretty cool. Smart ass like myself. And witty as hell. Unfortunatly we hang out and talk aboubt being depressed and fat. Then we exersize. He always cheers me up. I got him need for speed underground 2 for christmas. He's been playing the hell out of it. We've been doing tae bo and going running. I want to lose 15lbs before I go to Guam. It's a reach but imma try.

- eat your <3 out
-live for the moment

<3jasmin

I think I know what the problem is, it's the crack.

So, yeah... Christmas was... it was go-od. I guess. I got to the airport two and a half hours early. I've had the reservation for six months. For some reason the demon lord hates me. Delta over booked the flight by twelve people. It's Christmas! They should know better?! So I was bumped off. In fact a lot of people where. I finally got to SanFrancisco but I missed my connecting flight to the Philippines. Philippine airlines told me since Delta made me miss my flight, they should be responsible for my hotel and food for the night, but when I talked to the jerky jerkoff supervisor he said "We got you to your destination, so our responsibility is over." My mom was pissed. She wants to sue them. They gave a guy who missed the same flight a room because he stubbed his toe (and cause he was white). Hahahah ok race was probably not an issue, but my mom said it wasn't right. I got to Guam 4pm christmas day. No one was waiting for me at the airport *sad*.

Guam was fun. I guess... I worked and baby sat mostly. Hung out with Jashon some. Chicken siopao is the siht! Still funny as hell. Hair is getting longer. Joe, Jimmy, Jan, Jashon and myself hung out two nights before I left. Went bowling, played some video games, wendy's, k-mart, and strip clubs. Alright everything but the strip clubs. Jan is only sixteen! Joe was all like we can sneak him in. Hahahah. Joe broke out singing bon jovi's I'll be there for you. It was sexy, even Jashon said so. (Not Jashon's exact words, but close)

When I went to the airport Saturday morning they told me I couldn't get on the plane to the philippines because I didn't have a ticket back. Why the hell would you sell me the ticket in the first place! but damn what bad luck. I was all pissy that morning cause nothing was going right. But I got here.

The two hour car drive from the airport was fun, especially because I get car sick. I went to the salon with my momma and they put something in my hair and "massaged" my back. OMFG it hurt like hell but I didn'e want to say anything. I'm such a coward sometimes. Today we got facials now that, hurt like fuckninggoinognoignoingoiunombomgouchiehell. I don't ever want to do that again, but everytime I come here it happens so whatever. I think I get back to Maryland on the 22nd or so. Then school starts. Fun.

"He who laughs last, thinks slowest."
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- I'm a ninja.
- "Here's a dollar, knock yourself out."

wow.

I couldn't sleep at all today. I'm going to be sick. My heart is beating real fast. It's all his fault. I've been thinking about him all day. And it's just going to get worse as the day proceeds. What a jerk. (not really)

Ohishashiburi tachi man.

'To avoid hitting the bumper of the car in front, I struck the pedestrian.'

So it's been a while right? Let’s see what was I doing about September... School and work. I think work was starting to stress me out. Or should I say school. Whatever. I made a couple of new friends up in the game room at our school. I even went to a dance. I can't dance. But it was fun. I stayed in on Halloween. Didn't feel like driving all the way out to school to go trick or treating in Arbutus. My friends jacked all the candy from those take one houses.

Umm, I've been playing azure dreams a lot. The really sucky thing about it is when you die in the tower you lose all of your amazing items. I didn't think it could happen to me, a seasoned veteran. But my monster got confused and killed me. If your gonna go, that's the way to do it.

Erin just turned 21 a couple of days ago. I threw her a sleepover party. Girls only :D. We went out to a nice Japanese restaurant... My card got declined -_-'. But the very next day they put the money into my account. That was crappy. Anyway, we came home played some drinking games... actually we only played poker. We ate her cake with chopsticks and we fell asleep watching movies. I had to drop Liz of to school the next day. I didn't want to get up. But I over took this guy and Liz was wondering why this guy was flicking her off. That was hilarious. We have been going to ihop a lot. I guess it's kinda a tradition for my friends in the game room. I heart ihop.

It started to snow last night. I made this huge snowball and it's sitting in the lawn. The rest of the snow melted away though. :( I took pictures! Aj says snow is overrated. He's just mad because he has to drive in it so much. It's thanksgiving today. We are having a bird, a pig, and a cow. I love my family. I hope you all have a great thanksgiving. Hey, I mean that sincerely.

sugus

Damn it's been a while huh. I thought I was just being lazy. I think we need a new word for the term in which we don't do jack. Was that phrased properly?
My visit to Guam was good. Hanging out with Joe and Jashon wasn't too bad either. Onward was fun. Joe offered to pay for me which was great! Thanks Joe, your the greatest. Sorry I couldn't take you guys to tarza. I paid off my phone card debt at rustans. It came to 165$ I'm sure most of that was from this trip... My cousins are awesome, straight up. We get along so well and they are into the same things anime, music, and video games. *sniffle* They are so hard core. They are actually really funny too. We were driving past a bunch of old beat up junkie cars and my 11 year old cousin was all like "Those cars need to be pimped." It came out of no where. He is usually very quiet. One of my last nights there all Joe, Jashon, Les, Eric, The other Joe, and I went to shoot some pool. Big poppa is great. Joe is really good at pool. Did you guys know that? It was fun, maybe only cause I won all my games. a whooping 2. Despite how angry I got with them, I miss the pitter patter of the little feet waking me up in the morning. Jumping on me, hanging on to my legs for the ride. and the constant complaints. Not to mention the *** load of money I spent on them. I miss my niece and nephew. The night beforE my flight, my niece kept saying she was going with me to 'meri-land". And I tried to explain to her why she couldn't go, but she packed up her clothes and wouldnt leave me. Her mom said to just let her do it. She eventually fell asleep. I was giving her back her GBA she let me borrow it to play tactics and she said I could keep it, so sweet, of course I didn't take it. I'll buy my own in MD. I almost missed my flight. If it hadent been for the constant phone calls from Jashon and Jan I'd probably still be on guam. I had a great time everyone, thanks.
I am in california with nga(na) right now. For some reason I kick off sheets and it's freezing in the morning. Shit it's cold at night too. I thought it was supposed to be summer, bright sunny skies? We bought some tamogachi's to play with. Just felt a little nostalgic I suppose. They used to cost 50$ on guam. I had a craving for oysters. So Nga's dad had bought a nunch of stuff for a little get together last night. Vietnamese food, Soooooo good, mmn. We fried meat and shrimp and made our own little lumpia rolls. with the white wrap. (you dip it in water to soften it.) At the end it was Nga, her Boyfriend (Jason), and me. We finished off all the oysters. I had completly forgot about the ice cream mochi I bought until Nga reminded me. Coffee, vanilla, and mango. I ate way too much last night. No regrets though. I'm leaving tonight, my laast day here. I am so happy I'm heading home though. I am tired as shit. All the time changes and airplane flightes. Almost there.
-jasmin
"if less is more then nothing is everything." - that l5r player in MD

chocolait

GO SAN ANTONIO! There’s another 40$. Awesome sauce.

So quick update. I ended up using dragon and I lost horribly. I actually won two games hahahah the one was a bye and the other was against a girl who just learned to play the night before. But it was so much fun! I love L5R players. So damn great!

It was my brother’s birthday on the 15th. We brought him to red lobster and he thought it would just be family. My friends couldn’t get a table for 20 people on such short notice but red lobster does not do reservations. That sucked. So we walked in and SURPRIZE. It went well. Afterwards we had drinks and desert in the basement of our house. His present was great! We decided on a ping pong table. And I wrapped it up, I love big packages. We baked him a cake home made. I have got to tell you about this cake. I got nothing but praise for it. A layer of chocolate cake, whip cream and bananas on that, a layer of vanilla cake, strawberries and whip cream on that, a layer of strawberry cake, iced with whip cream, decorated with strawberries and drizzled with chocolate syrup. Talk about heart attacK, but so good. So the night went well, we shot some pool, and drank. I got a little drunk. Just a little. I swear... Erin and Niesha spent the night. Before I left Erin gave me a present! It was the first edition of shojo beat. I LOVE YOU ERIN-CHAN!

I left Maryland 7am got to San Francisco around 9:41am (SF time). Before I left there was the dilemma with my paper. Just to let you all know I finished it. Thanks to everyone who helped! Charles, Jeff, Kevin, and especially Jason!!! jAson you’re the coolest! Anyhow I spent the day with Nga in Oakland! She is doing great. Planning a surprise birthday party of her own for her boyfriend. We spent the day shopping for party stuff and baking a strawberry short cake. (Also got a lot of praise) She didn't want me to go I didn't really want to go. So she asked me to stop by again on my way back and I am really considering it.

I've been in the Philippines for a few days now. It is hot as hell. I keep getting bit by mosquitoes. But the food. It’s like DAMNN. All we do is eat. I'm supposed to be on a diet. There goes that idea. When I got here my niece and nephew greeted me at the airport. It was great! I haven’t seen them for 6 months and they've grown. Sigh* When I moved I knew it would be the one thing I would really regret. Not being able to see them grow. We've been swimming, ice skating, bowling, swimming, and did I mention swimming? My uncle has a pool so we go just about everyday. We went to the arcade twice and I beat a bunch of guys at basketball. Fun. Okay so I'm a hypocrite, we do more than just eat. Fresh pandesal, banana cue, chicken, shrimp, lobster, steak... and it's so cheap. I'm a princess. Oh and they seem to show a whole lot of anime on TV here. BLOWN.

So my dad owns a hotel out here and he asked me if I could just stay and manage it. My parents are so bent on my staying. I can't say that I haven’t thought about it. I miss them so much. They don't spoil me rotten, but you know they do it here and there. I like not worrying about money, but I can't depend on them all my life right? So this hotel, hahahahha it's called Bliss Hotel. It's deep in the Ghetto of Angeles City. Right next to the strip clubs, bars, and kareoke lounges. So there is this drive through option. We have little garages and you park your car and there are stairs to go right up to your room. Kind of like a small house with no kitchen. Twenty dollars a night come on! Before they told me it looked like my dad was a drug lord on Guam. Now it looks even worse. It's a pretty nice hotel though. They even have cable and free porn. I found that out while I was flipping through the channels -_-'. I got to cook in the kitchen for the first time. My nephew wanted a grilled cheese sandwich. He loved it! And he even asked, " Can we make this at home?" I am going to miss these kids. My mom spoils them though. I guess that’s what grandmothers do right? I'm just as bad though.

I'll be on Guam in 4 or 5 more days!

-Jasmin
"cite properly"

do or do not, there is no try.

Yesterday I was supposed to be catching up on some sleep but I decided instead to play some basketball with my brother, because 10,000$ is a lot of money. A horde of little kids schooled me. Where do you acquire skills like that? Whether its basket ball or Tae Kwon Do, guys can fly!

I booked my flight back to Guam! I'm leaving on the 17th. I'm going to spend a day in San Francisco with Nga, then a couple of days in the Philippines with moms and dad. Jashon's in the Philippines right now so I know I don't have to bring him back anything. Did Joe want anything? Does Joe even read my posts? Hahah. *totally ignored*.

The Kotei is coming up! I'm totally not prepared! But I decided to play Crane, even though they are going to get demolished by the Ratling. It's just for fun anyway right? (that, and the promos).

Work. Work has been a bitch, like always. My manager had a death in the family so a lot of people had to cover for her. Let me rephrase that, the shift managers and I, had to cover her. That on top of a bunch of call outs really made my week. When I come back from Guam, I’m getting promoted to shift manager. It’s really nothing to brag about. I get free food, about a dollar higher pay, and an ass load of stress. It's going to be fun. I am going to be a bitch. I promise that. I was going to quit, but they convinced me to stay. I don't want to waste the year I put in. So might as well become a manager then quit. It would look good on a resume'. The one girl they got working with me says the only reason she is sticking it out is because of me, that kind of pushed me to stay. I convinced her to stay with us, now I'm telling her I'm going to quit. Damned if I do, and damned if I don't.

Jasmin: I'm hungry.
Erin: You're always hungry.
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fumofu

Being sick sucks. Especially now that I have final's coming up. I can't concentrate on anything. All I can think about is chocolate chip pancakes. I can't sleep properly, I stayed up until four in the morning, doing absolutely nothing. Oh well, there's always next semester.

I need a good topic for a paper on ethics. I'm planning on writing about utilitarianism VS. Kantianism. The basic rule of utilitarianism is to maximize pleasure and avoid pain. It’s tied to happiness. Kantianism deals with the nature of rationality. The rule for Kantians is don’t ever do what you can’t always do. Here’s an example, ‘Fred lied last Thursday.’ For the utilitarianist this sentence alone is not enough information because you don’t know what happened as a result of Fred lying. He could’ve been lying to save a bunch of Jews. Or he could’ve been lying to keep his wife from finding out he went out with the boys. The Kantians say he did something that he can’t always do therefore he is bad. I’m not good at putting all these thoughts together, but this is some philosophy for ya’ll. ‘Count no man happy until he is dead.’ It’s all about Eudamonia ‘the good life’. Plato says you either care too much for material possessions or intangible rewards, ex. Spirit, honor…etc. Aristotle goes deeper into it and says between two points there is only one middle. If you’re not honest enough you’re dishonest, if you’re too honest, you blunt. Virtues are not to be confused with decisions and actions. Dispositions are states of tendency; they differ from person to person. Some of the things that may seem good to me might seem bad for someone else. Who is to say what’s wrong and what’s right? Utilitarianism and Kantianism are based on maxims. Only a person with the social security number 586…… can borrow money without paying it back. You’d have to make rules for the rules for this to work. When it comes down to it, there are some things that you just don’t do. I’m about to throw some David Hume into this shit. When you read Hume it’s really aggravating, but put plain and simple he says ‘You don’t know Jack.’ My head hurts.

Writing a paper on for my philosophy class should be a lot more fun than doing my econ paper. I’m betting that the econ paper would take less effort to write though because it’s all about statistics and facts. With the philosophy, I actually have to think. When did papers get so long? I don’t recall ever having to write a ten page paper in high school. Or even my first year of college. Who English you? I’m bad at writing; this is why I’m not a English major. I don’t even know what I want to do anymore. I want to play with cars. I want to know everything about what’s under the hood of a car. If anything though, that’ll be a side thing. I’m going to make chocolate chip pancakes.

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous

Hey guys. It's still cold outside, even though it's supposed to be spring already. This weather is getting on my nerves. It's always cold. I haven’t been doing much of anything lately. Just school and work. Same shit different day, yeah. I'm currently at school. Once every year we have this 24 hour anime marathon. They are showing Mecha right now, and I'm not into that. I swear I tried to watch but my mind just goes somewhere else. I'm looking at the screen but thinking about food or something. Horrible. So anyways, I'm headed back to Guam this summer to help out. My brother and his girlfriend need a vacation. They haven’t had one since I left. They also haven’t had a decent babysitter. My momma is taking the kids to the Philippines this summer so that my brother and his girlfriend can enjoy their time off. What the hell am I going to do on Guam! All my friends that can hang out during the day have moved. And All my friends that are left can only hang out at night when I have to be at the office. BLOW! Well, I owe my family a lot so I shouldn't complain. I'm so damn lucky, this life is great. And here I am taking it for granted. Right. I want to save up money anyway, so I'll have some cash for Otakon! For those who don't know, BIG ass anime convention in Baltimore! You should all come! I'll pick you up at the airport and drive you around myself.

Only 3 more weeks of school left then finals and I'm home free. I've been slacking for the last month or so... It started out so good too... Oh well! Next semester will be better!

Lately I've been thinking about my ex a lot. It's weird. Suddenly everything is reminding me of him. I need some damn closure. I wonder why I'm not strong enough, Why can't I protect the one I love? Corny line! I just thought about it after watching some poor guy get beat up in that mecha anime. OooooHHhHh so I can pay attention! I'm a dark depressed soul. Can you tell? I swear my co-workers are planning to beat me up because I smile so much. But that’s what cashiers do! Who's going to want to approach an horrid looking person. It’s not like you’d approach a bum on the street and strike up casual conversation. Sure maybe if the situation led to it, but most people wouldn’t do it free of will. Umm..I forgot the point I was trying to make. BAKA!

enough for now
-jasmin

wallflowers

I'm not manga obsessed. (They say the first step is denial.) I'm manga obsessed. (The next step would be admitting you had a problem.) I'm going to hold up the book store and steal all there manga, I will kill anyone who gets in my way.(.....)

I'm so blown. I've been getting really impatient lately. So incredibly bored with everything. I can't kick this feeling, there's something I'm supposed to be doing. Something much more important than any of this crap I'm doing now. What the hell could it be?!! I realize that I don't cuss as much as I really want to. It's like the words want to come out but don't. One of these days I'm just going to crack and cuss up a storm.

School is dragging. The only thing I'm really looking forward to is Anime club. Who can beat five hours of free anime? I really need to focus, but the stuff I'm learning is just so damn boring. Philosophy 'why?' Math 'what?' chemistry 'how the hell?' economics '...zZzz'. Yeah my life is so damn interesting. If your reading this... 'why?, what?!, how the hell? zzz...'

I really like playing basketball, it makes me feel good. I'm not good at all but I can finally make three pointers. I used to think that only big guys could do that. My brother watches college basketball. Maryland is on the losing side though. Boo.He has a bet going on 'the rookie of the year'Lebron James. 2800$ NBA huh. Gambling, what an addiction! I asked My brother if Lebron James attended college, and he said no. Then I asked him If I could quit college and join the wNba. He just laughed at me. -_-'. Crushing my hopes and dreams.(not really)

I want to ask you how are you doing? It's been a while, and my heart feels like it's been torn apart. Do you even remember? do you care?

I'm writing a song!!!!! it sounds so Emo. :p Oh well.

-jasmin
-don't break it... please

o-ka-ne

Damn. I have been so broke lately. Aj says I can't use the word broke and my name in the same sentence. Something about it being an oxymoron. I had to borrow money from my brother for court, and for gas. My brother can be pretty cool, sometimes. So I went to court today for my speeding ticket. The ticket was originally for 140$. I was thinking it was 240$ *phew*. So the judge called my name and I started to walk up to the stand. I tripped and fell on my face. So I get up to brush myself off, and I realize That my skirt had fallen a little below the waist. I was showing off part of my pink polka-dotted underwear to half the people in the court room and the cops who sit in the back. Great. Just great. Basically I told them that I was rushing to work and I couldn't afford to lose my job. And I started to blubber when I was explaining. I really didn't want to cry, but I just couldn't suck it up. I guess the judge felt sorry for me. He fine'd me 23$ and I have to go to a driver improvement class. How embarrising. Even after I left I was still tearing up. I hate it when I emote. Stupid feelings.

So school is going okay. I'm taking philosophy, macroeconomics, Precalculus, and chemistry. Fun. I got a lot of reading and a bunch of chem and math homework to do this weekend. It sucks though because I'm also working this weekend. And I'm babysitting on saturday night. I really like my managers kids though. She's got two boys, and they like to play video games with me. I'm never bored with them. I also never get to study while I'm around them. Which is always what I plan to do. Just never get to do it. Oh well.

Oh did I tell you guys? My parent's are offering me 10,000$ if I can lose 50lbs by my next birthday. Now if that's not incentive, then I don't know what is. (did I use that in the right context?) but damn Do you know what I can do with 10,000$?! I could visit all of you and treat you all to a very very nice dinner. Mcdonalds anyone? I heard that their dollar menu is FREAKING AWESOME. I really want a new laptop. This one's already infected with every possible virus that it can get. Anyway, I've been working out with my friend Erin since school started. We go to the gym at the very least four times a week. She just discovered that she likes playing basketball better than using the workout machines. (My influence.) Isn't that great. And we owe it all to SLAM DUNK. And maybe my brothers and my dad. Hey did you see my three pointer? I did it! I did it! I would never have thought in a million years that I could make that shot but I did! And it felt awesome. I gotta work on shooting at angles, and lay ups. I don't know how to do a lay up! They've taught me like fifty kazillion times but I just don't have the hand foot coordination. Well, I don't know about losing all that weight. I can try but, I can't promise anything.

boo

its getting colder and colder over here. right now i cant even feel my hands. retarded cold weather. I'm sitting at school trying to kill time before my biggest biology quiz. I should be studying but eh, lazy. been real lazy lately. Ive actually been going to sleep wayyyyy early as a result of not having the drive to study. I'm blaming my grades for this semester on my adjustment stage. heheh. makeing up excuses. Yeah, I wasnt sure about going back home this winter. But after talking to my mom, I kinda have to. Mom's know how to guilt you into things. I do miss her though. And everyone else.

tHANKS gIVING break was awesome guys! Aj is losing weight! Mark... I havent seen mark in forever! and ronnel is... ronnel! heheh. Only the coolest guy ever. we should all form a band. Ronnel's got one hell of a singing voice. for real, I wanna drum. I stayed over at mark's aunt and uncles place. They were so nice, I even got my own room! Of course I was in the basement most of the time hanging out with the guys though. L5R is still the best game ever. and umm..... I'm sexy, people like me.

I want some chamorro chip cookies. That stuff was the shit. hrmm, and king car lemon tea. I could go for some of that. I'm going to be mailing myself a whole lot of food. hahah. I need to save up. I also got a lot of christmas shopping to do! college students are usually broke. Ahh life on my own. The whole independent kick is going downhill fast. Well I'm still so reliant on mommy and daddy. And william has always got my back out here. How nice right? My manager is amazed that me and my brother get a long so well. I guess its not common out here. And it's only because I havent lived with him for 4 years. We got a lot of catching up to do. I mean in the argument department. We will get there, im certain. Anyway this is long enough. -jasmin

SPAAZ

What a blow. I got so much shit to do and so much time to do it in. The great P word, Procrastination. I think I want to learn how to play the guitar. It looks like so much fun don't you think. I doubt I'll get any good though. I usually stop playing 10 mnts after I get whatever instument it is I wanted. My ex-boyfriend used to play the guitar. I completely adored him for I lacked any of the talent he had. I still adore him, but I will live with the regret that I ditched for friends. But it's all good. I'll make it up someday.

School is going okay, I've formed a more positive outlook on everything. I just hope to keep it this way for a while. I only have 2 more months of school left! That was quick.

I've been watching a lot of new anime. new for me. It's so great. I also bought a new video game. well new for me yet again. It's the final fantasy origins. I've never been able to play it before. Hopefully I'll have the time to now. FUN.

Well keep it on the DL. TTYL. I met someone I think is worth mentioning, Chris from my sociology class. mentioned. so there :D

Yo.

Damn. I just found out that I have a whole month for christmas break. Is'nt that nice? There is going to be a yellowcard concert at my school. I think I'm gonna go... Hrmm. Erin came over last night. We think so much alike. Weird. I like her so much. hmm. So we hung out, went bowling, watched anime, and ate. hahah it was perfect, except for the fact that I had Exams in the morning which I didn't study at all for. :D. Sigh, I need to do better.

hey

Tedious. Look it up. That's what life is.

hate*

*anger* grrrr. Some people are so dumb.

wow

I think people are getting super lazy with updates. Well I, I have and excuse. Working two jobs, trying to have a social life, and attempting to get some sleep. It did'nt work out. Work was fun but I ended up quiting one job. As for my social life, hahahahahahahahah. Sleep is getting better though. I need to clean up my room. It's been looking like crap since I started working.

So I'm broke. I went to Otakon yayy. That was fun. I brought my cousin and he said it looked like halloween. Half naked girls and some really weird old men. The first day we went to pick up tags, and our car got towed, 207$+ for that shit. It was aweful. The next few days were a lot of fun. shopping, cosplaying, and free stuff, My cousin went crazy at the free booths. Just grabbed 7 of everything. I met some really coool people. For one I met the infamous Kevin Sniff. I kind of semt angry most of the time. Maybe it's just the expression I generate from him. He is funny and really nice. I told him about my mad pusoy dos skillz. hahah. I gave fair warning but they didn't listen. The first day kevin did treat us to lunch just not to give the waiter a hard time. He was incredibly thoughtful to his servers. everywhere we went. Hrmm, The only other new person would be brian. brian would have to be that token black guy. He seems like a lot of fun to hang out with. But He was always off partying somewhere else. Jerry, Charles, Jeff, and Chris B. was there. Jerry is super cool. The only one underage like me. Charles hehehe, is charles, RU-KA-WA RU-KA-WA L-O-V-E RU-KA-WA. Jeff hung out with me the whole time. That was cool. We even played L5R together. It's been a while, so he won some and I won some. You cant really declare a winner with that. But damn I miss playing l5r so much. Jeff also treated me to a bunch of things. Doomo Arigato gozaimashita Jeffuri san. Chris was the big spender during the trip. That nigga be spending 400$ a day on anime and what not. That's the true Otaku ne.

Well I need to clean and get ready for work. Thanks for stopping by. Sorry it's been so long. Will try to keep updated. nyan.

damn.

I went to safeway and I got the job. I also went to orientation for Taco Bell. Score. They had us timed in for three hours. However, a dilemma has occured. I have orientation for Safeway tomorrow morning. And I also have work at Taco bell. shit. My safe way schedule will not interfere with my Taco bell schedule. except for orientation tomorrow. I'd be working sixteen hour days. Id say an hour driving to work and back so I'd be getting about 6 hours of sleep still. That's pretty great. I'm getting paid 6.75$ per hour at Taco Bell and 7.50$ at safe way. I'd be making 500+ a week. Of course I'd be killing myself for it but thats a lot of money. 1000 per paycheck and 2000 a month. Well I'm gonna have to drop one job for school. Or maybe both.

Ride's wont be a problem to safeway because its close and the time I'd have to work at safeway My brother doesn't have work, so I'd be able to take the car myself. And for now rides to Taco bell wont be a problem unless the avalanche gets repossessed again. *knocks on wood* That would suck.Anyway I don't really want to think about it anymore. All this thinking. My brain is bleeding from it all.

Things are going. It seems like when I lack something and finally get it, I get excess amounts of it. I need to wash my Uniforms, finish ironing williams shirts call my cousin, wash the dishes, and make dinner. I'd better go. Ja-Ne.

boys in the hood-dynamite hack download it because its the shit, old school style, bitches.

"and the bitch said something to make me mad. she said something that I couldn't believe. so i grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy ass weave. started talking shit, wouldn't you know, I reached back like a pimp and I slapped the ho."

Shave your head and get a tattoo

Safeway called, I got another job offer. Night shift stalker-stocker. Hahah makes me sound psycho. So it would be good if I got this job at night and my Taco bell schedule would be during the morning and or afternoon. I have an interview for safeway at 11am. Then I have orientation at Taco bell at 4pm. I hope it all goes well. More money is always better.

My brother got his new laptop today. It's pretty nice. Finally I get the hand me down laptop all to myself. JOY. When he came home I told him it wasnt here yet.
Jasmin: "Or is it?" *open up hamper**he looks inside*
William: "I don't believe you."
Jasmin: "Oh yeah? *pulls out package from closet* then I guess I'll be taking this with me."
He opened it up and I said "You also got some mail here"
William"Right now I dont care about the mail"
Jasmin " not even this letter that says URGENT: life or death situation."
Yeah I guess after me joking around alot he wouldn't really believe he got a letter like that. Even though he did :).

My brothers a slave driver. He s got me washing and ironing his clothes, cleaning his room, and packing his lunch for work. I feel like a maid. I really don't care hahah. It's something to do. I mean I love being a bum and feeling like a complete freeloader, but I guess After the extra 20lbs I tried to changed my lifestyle. now here I am. 30lbs heavier. Apparantly when I started to do house chores I started to eat more. Great. I head for the fridge every 15mnts when there is nothing else to do. I'm a fatty. Who else here is a fatty? Because I know I'm not alone on this.

Yeah so I was saying my cousin Melvin has been missing for two days. He called today. He went to ocean city. He will be back tonight. Super.

I had some italian ice cream today. It was great. I think they call it Jalatto. I'm not sure about the spelling. Freakin Italians and their strange vocabulary. I plan to visit Europe once I accomplish my goal. My goal you ask? Or even if you don't. Well it's for another post anyway. I've got to start on my costume for Otakon. I didn't know cosplaying would be so difficult. My first big Anime Convention. SCORE

I'm a sperm!

Yeah Jashon got a lot of the guys to say that, it is true.

Recent events: My cousin has been missing for two days.

I've been worried since day one. My brother and uncle are used to him missing for a day or so I guess. But today they are a little bit worried. Man oh man.

So I told my uncle about taco bell. That they had to train me. He said "thats very easy. all you do is put the stuff in and *pack*". I told him they had to train me for the register, he said "thats simple your doing the computer so thats just chicken to you. "

Guams typhoon! I miss guams typhoons! yayy.

How many dragon ball Z characters does it take to screw in a light bulb?

One, but it takes four episodes.

It's so boring here. Im damn tired of gettin pissed off at the fact that it's not as great as I hoped it to be. I want school to start. NOW. So I can make friends.

Oh yeah did I tell everyone? Starting tuesday I'll be working at my dream job. Taco bell. Ok, So fast food really wasn't the first on my list but it is something to kill time and make money. I wonder what my co-workers will be like.

So today I thought about exersizing. Yes I thought about it. I never got around to actually doing it though. Those mental push ups just fried me. I'm trying to get my brother to take me to a store. I needa buy somethings.
1.cotton balls
2.black pencil eyeliner
3.food
4.some facial products
5.more food and that seems to be about it.

We always say that we don't care what they think. But we do. We always say its alright. When it's not. We settle for what we get. When we can get better. I hate the circle of life.

My dear cousin.

My cousin Michael lives in Japan. He's 14 and has a girlfriend named Rebecca. He came to guam Last summer and My friends and I taught him how to play L5R (because that game is the shit). He was here in Maryland last month and earlier this month. He had to leave early becuase he apperantly has a job. He is making 200$ a week. That's 800$ a month. My 14 year old cousin has a job a girl and high expectations for his future. I could never imagine myself admireing someone younger. But here I am. I am making nothing a month, I don't have a boyfriend, and my expectations for the future? To get by.

Everytime Mike and I are together we get pretty stupid. Back on Guam he had a futon next to my bed. Here he has a futon next to his bed which I currently sleep in. It's not his room anymore :p. He sleeps with his eyes partially open which freakd me out the first few times, he talks in his sleep, throws whatever he can get his hands on in any direction he see s fit, snores and he likes to kick the bed I sleep on in the middle of the night to wake me up. All that great shit, while he's sleeping! Gotta love the 3am alarm kick. He had a friend sleep over a couple of times and after I put clothes in the wash I saw him Throw a pillow to his friends face like baseball throw and direct hit. The guy didnt move, he just laid there like it never happened. rocks. Slept like rocks.

Mike can be surprizingly funny at times. When we were back on guam we were listening to "project chick- by big tymers" the beggining goes like this This is for Deshawn, Eshlawn, Lil Mama, an her friends Lisa, Teresa, Maria, Tia, Lia and Kim. It was Mike Jashon Ronnel and me in the car. Mike busts out singing " this is for Jashon" . And we couldnt stop cracking up. It would be funny if you were in the moment:p. Well while he was in maryland I was complaining about how I needed to lose weight like I always do.
jasmin: I need to exersize. I'm getting fat-er. I can almost bite the insides of my cheecks.
Mike: I can already do that.
Now then we could'nt help but laugh everytime it came up. He told me that his first girlfriend used to laugh at everything, even if it wasnt funny. She would laugh then suddenly stop.So I mimiked it and it was funny-ugly. Well for us anyway :). Yeah, even though I would never say it to his face. My cousin can be pretty cool sometimes. We'd play cards, go jogging, and play ball. Late at night we'd watch family guy and talk about shit. For a 14 year old he can be pretty deep sometimes. sometimes he s just full of it. Hahah. It's a joke, laugh mike.

Yeah so let me tell you what I did today. Internet, Ironed my brothers shirts, ate, slept, and watched tv. Eventful.

Oh yeah, taco bell called. I got a job. lol. My brother dosnt want me working at taco bell. I got a pakage today that contained my spring transcripts 3.4 3.4 3.4 ! And my l5r clan rival binders. Thanks mom. (my mom dosnt know i have a webjournal). Well Thats it.

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So I tried updating a couple of times. It always semt to turn out as complete crap. My days go like this. wake up, eat, watch some movies, sleep, chat, eat, talk on the phone, sleep, wake up and repeat. Is'nt it great. I need to find my bum ass a job, so I can be doing things a bit more productive than the above mentioned. It's almost Charles birthday. I think we are going to hang out, unless my brother suddenly decides that playing yugioh wth complete strangers is dangerous then I cant go. But only then. Well I'm bored already, arent you? goodnight.

jokes

i hope it makes you smile.

An 80 year old man was having his annual checkup and the doctor asked him how he was feeling.
"I've never been better!" he boasted. "I've got an eighteen year old bride who's pregnant and having my child! What do you think about that?" The doctor considered this for a moment, then said, "Let me tell you a story. I knew a guy who was an avid hunter. He never missed a season. But one day went out in a bit of a hurry and he accidentally grabbed his umbrella instead of his gun." The doctor continued, "So he was in the woods and suddenly a grizzly bear appeared in front of him! He raised up his umbrella, pointed it at the bear and squeezed the handle." "And do you know what happened?" the doctor queried. Dumbfounded, the old man replied "No". The doctor continued, "The bear dropped dead in front of him!" "That's impossible!" exclaimed the old man. "Someone else must have shot that bear." "That's kind of what I'm getting at..." replied the doctor.

it s cold

im bored. im lazy. i need something to do. i need to get a job. hrmm. O_o my cousin is listening to madonna's like a virgin. hahah. who dosnt love that song? yah. i think im going back to sleep. there really is nothing worth updating. pointless.

nothing

everything is so slow lately. im not unhappy. im not happy. but the days are passing. today i ate and watched movies. Williams girl is over to visit. yeah... i dont know what to say about that.

So I went running today. My cousin mike kinda pushed me to go. which is good. im fucken huge. its like i gained 50 lbs since ive been here. all i do is eat and sleep. but when i weighed myself i lost weight. I dont understand!!!!1

im still having trouble ajusting to the time. i can never sleep good. right now its 3 30 am. all my nights are like this. oh yeah before i forget, i watched count of monte cristo. I actually liked it... strange. i never say i like movies. i also played some monopoly with my brother and my cousins. monopoly takes longer than i expect everytime we play. yeah anyway i m goonnnaaa try to sleep. nite.

that unspoken feeling

I got my maryland drivers licence today. The picture is crap but the good news is i get to change it in 2 years -_-'. Well after spending about two hours at the mva (maryland vehicle adminitration) and spending 46$ (45 for the licence and 1 for the organ donors fund ^_^) i went home and did nothing. I kept asking william to do something but he's lazy. I played basketball with michael. then some magic the gathering with my brother and my cousins. some "typing of the dead" its an aweful name. but the game isnt bad. i think ive improved my typing skills. hahaha. i dont have to look down at the keyboard all the time . well after that i was ready to shower but thye all decided they wanted to play tongetts my cousin melvin brought down his bettin g chips. and we played until 4am. now everyone is sleeping and i should too. ill update more tommorow. night.

the day after

wee. i went to a party with my brother yesterdaY. i really didnt want to go but he convinced me. Williams friend Ryan was having a family bbq. the thing that surprized me is that they were all filipino. the family was teasing me about singing becuase my name is jasmin. like the girl from american idol. i dont watch american idol. Ahh filipino BBQ parties, yep. kareoke and all. Afterwards we watched day after tommorow. im still not that big on movies. it was alright... yeah. "tell her how you feel." hahaha everyone in the movie theater thought that was gay. i love how the people here are so open. One of the funniest parts about the movie was when they didn't let the US citezens into mexico. HAHAHAHHA. If you didnt watch it im sorry for spoiling it for you. the people i met were very warm. for once the women out numbered the men. different. i kinda kept to myself. anti social. hahahah. im just not used to them. but they expressed their concern "dude is your sister alright?". yeah there was one caucasian girl 4 filipino girls, and 3 filipino guys. i said " i didnt know there were so many filipino's in maryland" ryan said "this is it right here." lisa said that every year they have like a filipino convention. So i guess thats where they all met? well whatever that must sound boring.

I need my transcripts so i can decide which college i want to go to. if my grades are still above a 3.0 then im going to umbc. if its below a 3.0 then its anne arundel community college. So I got my drivers licence and im accepted into college. basically all i need is that job. *crosses fingers*.

anyway i was talking to my brother about how often weve been going to the mall. he says we have been going atleast 10 days. I think its only been 5 . anyhow its too long but im not goona break tradition ^_^ well im going. Bai bai .

memorial

Today I went to DC with charmaine and william. wee. I saw the vietnam wall. people were crying at this wall. children and adults alike. it was so depressing. We also saw "the rolling thunder" POW MIA. Its a bunch of motorcylists whar ride around Dc making alot of noise. I have no idea what it was for. I should look it up.
okay here is what i got

"Rolling Thunder®, Inc.'s major function is to publicize the POW-MIA issue. To educate the public of the fact that many American prisoners of war were left behind after all past wars. To help correct the past and to protect the future veterans from being left behind should they become prisoners of war-missing in action. We are committed to helping American veterans from all wars!"

wow, enlightenment. heheh. I saw something else that i thought was interesting. They had statues of a bunch of american soildiers. on the floor was inscripted these words "Our nation honors her sons and daughters who answered the call to defend a country they never knew and a people they never met." The korean war , Maybe ill take up history. It seems like alot more fun ne. I dont know.

anyhow after all of that we went bowling then played some video games at Jillians. Jillians is a bowling center and arcade, a pool hall, a bar, and a restaurant all in one. It's alright... but they start kicking out people under 21 at 9 o clock. yes kiddies that means me. Hahahah. I miss guam.

Ive been getting really lazy with my journal posts. my bad, ill do better. hopefully. anyway im going to clean. BAI BAI!

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The korean war